Fear

Seriously though. Do I really have what it takes to be a producer? And one who makes an impact too?
It's one thing to be able to coordinate a performance or two for little events here and there. It's another thing to make money out of it. And I'm just wondering what makes me think I can do that.

Featuring...Pt. IV : Sexy Lucia.

So I had four days of class last week in Bangkok, and no, while I have nothing much to say about that, I do wanna show you who I stayed with.
Introducing Lucia, the beautiful Thai girl who let me stay with her in her pretty room for the week.
You may wipe that drool off now, pleasethankyou. But yeah, she was a real sport, and I had a good time staying with her, both of us keeping each other company ..I shall refrain from the..um..details. Moving on,The white chick in the pic above is Kristina who is another character of her own. I love this picture, it's got so many potential titles. Lucia named it "Ragdolls". I'd put something a lil darker, though. heheh I love their expressions!

Oh did I mention she dances and sings too?

here's a good one of the mini Lucia @ Pompeii. Another beauty. If only it was a little clearer..
Summary:
Lucia, pretty Thai girl, contains complex infrastructure of the female mind and isn't afraid to speak out, studies in prestigious Chulalongkorn University of Thailand, lived in Italy for six years, will make you eat her coffee-flavored jellybeans. =)

There's a new poll on the right...

I'd like your opinions on that question, so yeah, feel free to mention anything in connection to the blogpoll anywhere here too. =) gracias

Look at this hottie here

I'm not the only one who thinks she should keep this grooming thing up, right?=) Looking good this way, woman!
P.S. For those who couldn't recognize, it's BERNICE JESUDASAN!

While at Suvarnabhumi Airport...

For the first time in a LONG time, I wasn't looking forward to going to Bangkok, and I'm so excited to get back to KL now. No idea why.

I feel like cheesecake now.
And running in rain.
I tried nice perfume just now at the Duty Free. mMmmMMmmm. hahhaha.
yes i'm just blurting out thoughts as usual.
I'm happy.
which might be a lil strange coz it's just been a day away since my last post which probably sounded emo. heh.sorry 'bout that. i know i made that don't-be-emo-in-blog thing, but...yea now and then can lah hor..

"By day you'll feel the what-ifs run over you
By night you'll wish you knew what you wanted and
all that you'll want to picture, to think about is if maybe I could be
all that you want all that you need, everything you hoped for
sooner or later you will see it, honey
I could be.
I could be."

-joni-

"Too deep for my superficial lil mind"

or was it the other way 'round? I don't know what's gonna come out in this post. One minute I was in class, learning Aristotle, feeling superficial and not really following the lecture. Then Max popped in, remember my lecturer from the diploma course? It was good to see him after so long. *random mention*
Then I was happier for some reason. and it rained magnificently. I wanted to soak in the rain.
Then I got home after wading through floodgustingwaters, and chatted online.
And I start to wonder about the functionality of online messages. Isn't it hard to describe what's really on your mind through conversation-style typing? Sometimes you don't want to feel/sound stupid/emo/upset/toohappy/excited, so you add idiotic little things like emoticons and lols,hahas and hehes.

I don't appreciate the confusion MSN causes.
potentially can cause.
has caused.
yea whatever.

I wish you could sometimes turn psychic and read me openly.
I wish you'd ask how I am, and mean it.
I wish you had the guts to stop avoiding my point.
I wish you weren't so caught up in your heartbreak coz then maybe you'd see mine.

This week I've missed..

Petrina Thong Beng Ching - i miss your listening ear. and your sympathy. like, face to face. u've been listening to my nyeks this week, THANKYOUUUUU muahhhh, but yknow, i miss our regular sleepover nights where we'll just mumble stuff to each other now and then, or get really into a particular topic and all the expressions that come with it. Even the other day when i stayed with you one night, hardly talked..

Nelvie Reuel Ng - who has been consistently making sure that I'm still alive in my house while completing my assignments, and not overdosing on stuff. But I haven't seen him in a while. ["him" instead of "you" coz I doubt he'll ever read this.]

[evil eyes pic. =D]

Reena & RT & Kanu- it's been SOOOO LONG since I saw my cousins. when we're together, we are...well..noisy, to say the least.

But most of all, I miss...

Sarah Lim Shu Yi - I miss the happyhappyrandom days like when she picked me up and we got lost in ShahAlam/Puchong..
and when we had NZN cravings to satisfy and we'd go "mMmMmMmMM" at the same time when it entered our mouths.
and munching at 3am on the kitchen floor.
and begging each other for massages coz we seem to be the only ones who can.
and just talking about ...stuff. just anything at all.

Melinda Doolittle

I don't usually get all fan-ny about artists/singers/actors. But this Melinda chick, from American Idol 6, is.
so.
good.
She makes me wanna do the whole DearMelindaI'mYourBiggestFan thing and put in my 2cents' worth into her mailbox together with heartshaped chocolates in shiny paper.





I love her most for her humility.
She is so humble and sweet and yet, on the stage she's a powerhouse!(apologies for the cliche)
I will probably stalk her online for a bit. I just wanna HUG and KISS her!
and LOOK! even Simon Cowell kissed her!



Oh, and i thought the following video was ABSOLUTELY PRICELESS.
Simon Cowell kena marah by an 86yr old granny?!priceless.

Adlee's wedding

It was actually a "renewal of vows" coz Adlee & Owen got married in UK 15th April '06. Nevertheless, it was a very pretty garden ceremony.This is Adlee's sister - Tiffany Fay (and that's her daughter Arianna's lil hand in the picture)Beautiful Dr.Genevieve Teoh was there too..Yea we had to take bathroom pictures.Here we are trespassing in their chalet - it was gorgeous.
But I'll let Pet blog about that.
'Til then.

Tammy turns 13 - April 8th

Rewind to last Sunday - Easter. Did I mention it was also my sister Tamara Jayne aka Tammy's 13th birthday [woohoo!].

We celebrated all the April babies with a lil lunch.So cute, right, the way Tammy blew the candles! hahaha. L-R : Naomi, Lydia, Kevin, Tammy
More pictures from this lunch HERE
Then on Wednesday, a few of her friends came to our house, woke her up from her afternoon nap, and surprised her.I don't have the picture of her sleeping before we woke her up, it's still in Bern's cam.


Josh doing his ketuk-ketampi as punishment for losing a game. Funny fella Neavean is like...sokong-ing him. hahah!Then we all went to the pool.
I'm pretty sure she had fun.
The End.


Or not, coz look at this! Is BERNICE JESUDASAN ACTUALLY POSING?????

Anime Girl?

Pet looks quite garang. I didn't know my ear was showing here - I keep thinking of those anime characters, the ones with the pixie ears and tails?? Couldn't find a good picture of one, so instead, here's Josie!

hehe



Thought of the day: I want to curl my hair.

Featuring...Pt.III

Aubry Chong Yuan Yaw

Otherwise known as Ah Yaw..gave a first impression of someone who was quiet..calm..steady..sane..

occasionally humorous..

But something changed as I got to know him.

He got louder. More outspoken. Crazy, even, at times.

He provoked smiles/glances/cackles/laughter - at the oddest hours.
He eased tense atmospheres.
He wowed us with his drumming.
He's made me laugh countless times.

Just the other day, he started stamping his feet, clapping his hands and arms on his body,
then when he noticed he had an audience, he paused in his odd jig to say,
"Stomp The Yaw".

RM12 can buy 3 hoodies!

There's a sale of a jillion not-so-sellable clothes in Summit now. The offer was RM1.00 for 100gm of clothes, so they weigh what you wanna buy to get the price. My mom, sister and I popped in to see what we could see. The outcome? After searching through the piles, we actually managed to find a few interesting things - Mom bought about 13pieces of clothes for a total of RM21, and I got about 6pieces for RM17!!
So anyway, I thought you'd like to see some, so I in my vanity took the liberty of modeling a few for you to see.....

Candy-cane spag. = RM1.80

Sweet sky-blue hoodie = RM3.80

Brown hoodie with gold lettering = RM4.00

White hoodie = RM3.80

Mom: Oh dear, dad, now you have to take us to some nice cold place like Camerons or at least Genting so we can wear these....

I dunno what I'm gonna do with all these hoodies but..who cares! I sell to you lah..RM49.90 only, want?

=D

Do you have a third nipple?

haha, Sam says he does. And Pet is still attracted to non-heteros.
So what do I have to expose to the world [as if you don't already think I'm weird]..?

Weird Fact #1:
I used to have sleepovers with my brother Darren and our Kuching pastor's two sons. Just the four of us on one big king-sized bed. I was about eight/nine. Darren was probably six, the other two boys were between 10-12..

Weird Fact#2:
I check out girls more than I check out guys. [Girls are usually more interesting to look at, anyway.] I note their sexiest body-parts and analyze in my head WHY it's sexy. I dunno why I do, but it's fun. Except that some people have started to notice this. erheh.

Weird Fact#3:
I don't really like air-conditioning unless I've been in the sun too long. [it's just coz I hate the way air-conditioning dries me up]

Weird Fact#4:
Sometimes I wish I had been forced to drink more milk as a kid so that I'd be taller now. Seems to have worked for Darren and Tammy..

Weird Fact#5:
If I couldn't study music, I was considering Psychology. No, really.

Weird Fact#6:
The smell of my hair has recently been my comfort zone. Like the comfort safety blankets bring..

Dear God,

Please may I have a little pocket-sized gadget that has an SD card slot and lotsa RAM so that I may instantly transfer pictures and videos taken from other cameras? Thank you in advance.

Amen.

Joni and her lion

I had an equally buta dream last night. And it went on for quite a while too! Here's what I remember:

I was on a large field. And it's got those Christmas-sy trees around it. And there's this lion that can talk. I don't remember what he said, but we have this long comforting conversation (again, I don't remember why I needed 'comforting'), and here's the buta part...

I sleep in a CAGE, with the lion.

*blink blink* And i think there's a lioness nearby and I'm a lil' intimidated but not afraid coz' the lion is there. what the......?!

So then it's almost morning, and I get the feeling that I shouldn't be found in there (ya think?!) and I ask the lion how I can get out before "they" come and see me. And he tells me to just lie quietly where I am and they won't notice.
When "they" came, I couldn't quite tell what exactly they were..
They weren't circus people, were they?
I don't think they were cleaners either..I dunno la. And no, I haven't watched/read any fantasy movies/books or anything recently..

so weird.