Gray

GRAY

Trailing my fingers across your skin

Velvet secrets out for a spin

Believe this will slip away, fade away, disappear

Fast forward/Rewind to a time that you'll remember

when it was not all so black and white, darkness and light

Do you remember?

It's time you made up your mind

To put out the light or ignite

We've been on this carousel way too many rounds and I'm thinking over

I won't wait til it gets out of line

Stop taking your time, wasting mine

Won't be okay with this gray.

Cut it deeper to see how much of me flows

Keep it bottled and watch as it grows

Take twenty when all you need is just one more

You look dark like a prince who has lost his crown

but kept the jewels in his stare

No matter what's said, detachment underplayed

The colours fade..

It's time you made up your mind

To put out the light or ignite

We've going around and around and around and

I won't wait til it gets out of line

Stop taking your time, wasting mine

Won't be okay..with this..gray.

"Wear a suit, k"

Wow. I'm getting super lousy at remembering to take pictures of the things I do. I remember a time when EVERYTHING was picture-bloggable. (yes, bloggable)

I can't believe I didn't take a SINGLE PICTURE this night.tsk tsk tsk.

I got out of the car thinking "ok, I'm gonna change out of this in like, 5mins, no need to wear my heels lahhhh...."

Cheh. Regretting that now haha.

Mom made the cake deco. Paperplanepursuit.com! =D
Irwan was trying to figure out which one was him.

Sheena got a biiiiiit obsessed with cake-pictures...

then Joey came with his canggih camera and took pictures, yayy..

happy happy joy joy

haha joni you're so rude

there should be a cupcake and a starbucks logo in that little collage you've made.
hahahhaha oh such a temptation to post the collage here with my exact suggestions added in.

carnalities of the night

a jealousy for your talent.
mental exhaustion for the week.
a digging deeper into the very being of me for the best there is.

your heartache brings me heartache,
but your sting is much much stronger,
a silent murderous poison,
there's a need to let go.
such a waste you weren't seeing things clearly
such an inequity is hard to forget, but He's real and He can,
there's a need to let go.
the only thing consistent is your chaos,
its perpetuality like a raging war
of good and bad and bad is strong
like venom running deep into the veins,
like a swelling tongue plugging out breath,
like ten thousand bamboo needles embedded into the skin
there's a need to let go.

a desperate need to let go.

Too busy for you

It bothers me when I can't find even ONE person willing to take 30mins of their time to bring 4 visitors to a place because they are too busy promoting and preparing the place for those same visitors.

Rich people smell of serum

I spritzed some of the stuff from the sunny orange bottle onto my palm and almost immediately its sweet refreshing smell filled the entire room. I breathed it in, a nice deep refreshing type of breathing in. It smelled so good, and oddly, a distant memory of a well-off childhood friend stepped into my mind. Much like the sudden smell of granma that you sometimes get while walking past the most unlikely places like the woodcutter next to the bakery.
Strange how memories can be dug up like that - by a smell.
Yea, rich people smell of serum.

Ministry of Bounce

or "yyyyyyeeeaaa. So I've been having pretty random dreams 2."

This time, I'm with a friend (female, but that's all I remember now) and we're just chatting and babysitting a roomful of little kids. We're passing out helium balloons to them to play with.
It's indoors, and suddenly a lightweight little girl starts to float up to the ceiling with her helium balloon.

I quickly tell her to hold her breath and she starts floating back down. Then in her excitement, she squeals,breathing in at the same time and floats back up.

This leads to a big *lightbulb* moment in my head. I excitedly discuss what's on my mind to my friend and we decide, We Are Going To Make This A Plaything For Kids.

The next scene is us outside this massive Room construction in the middle of an outdoor playground. The inner walls/floor of the room are padded and look really comfortable, there's a little door to one side. It's almost like a square room with rounded edges. Inside, are a few little kids excitedly flying around the room with helium balloons strapped to their clothes and a little gadget for them to float higher or lower. Some are touching the high ceiling and calling out to their mommies "LOOKKKK!!! LOOKKKKKKK, MOMMMMMMYYYY, LOOOKKKK"

(hee, awwww)

And there we are right outside, fixing the gadgets and balloons to more little kids for free. We look uber happy to be doing this. Patent pending already. hahahah.

Next scene. We're walking away from the outdoor-indoor room towards some kinda Chatuchak-ish market (oh, we're in a really nice autumn-y city, btw) and randomly talking to passersby about our new playground addition. We go right into a waterpark and talk to parents there about it too, telling them that we knew their lil' ones would be tired after the waterpark, but they can always bring them tomorrow. And the parents sound excited too. We also tell them it's going to be free until the patent is approved, then we'll just charge kids 50c or something. =D



*this dream happened either a day or two after the previous strange dream i posted up, but i've kept it in my drafts and forgotten about it til now

yyyyyyeeeaaa. So I've been having pretty random dreams.

This time, I was back in Sinthanee 1, except the houses were more modern, fancier and bigger. I realized my neighbors were all FLC people (Darren/Tammy's learning centre in ChiangRai). I was at some form of party in one of their houses where there was this room that led to the outdoors. Yea.. like, the woods. But it starts off as a room. hmm, kinda like the Narnia concept now that I think of it.Anyway, so I'm outside of this room and watching the younger kids play in the pool (yes, the house had a pool) while the bunch of kids closer to my age are all in that room planning. It was some kind of play, I think.

This went on for quite a while (the details fuzz up here) and the next scene I remember is of Rachel Fox ..She's in a long flowy robe/gown, leading everyone else into the woods. There's a lot of nice wind at this point (for the robe to blow-in-the-wind to create drama, I assume).Most of the FLC kids are following her and everyone's happily chatting and planning this play..or maybe it was some kinda reality-....um..reality...story? *insert more fuzz*

The next scene goes into a university hall. It's full of farang people and these include again, the FLC ppl..
This time, though, I'm with Hsu Lynn (my Malaysian-Kiwi friend,heehee) ....and we're rushing to make it for an audition in this hall. We're late - "everyone else has already auditioned", but then Hsu Lynn takes centerstage (insert "oooooh"). All eyes are on her. I take a front row seat.

(at this point in my dream, I have no clue what she's auditioning for, only that she seems to be vying for a really difficult but great spot and I seem to be there to support her)

Hsu Lynn starts a dance routine. It's kinda like modern-jazzy-contemporary-ish.

At first I don't get it. So I start to worry about what the judges will think.

Then she starts to pull these interesting moves that, though I never saw the other auditions, I thought none of them would have done.

There's this pretty judge who seems to be the leader. (i think i knew her in the dream but it's all fuzz now). She starts to whisper to the other judges pointing out happily at Hsu Lynn as she dances.Then she stands up and announces in some fuzzy language that Hsu Lynn is chosen (I don't think I ever knew what it was for...)


Yyyyyyeaaaa. So I've been having pretty random dreams.

I repeat, "irregardless" is an oxymoron.

I was about to type into my facebook status "Joni Lynne does not understand why the word "irregardless" continues to circulate". Then I thought, hey, let's google it.

Google knows all.

I found two enlightening-and-then-depressing definitions from dictionary.com.

READ.

ir⋅re⋅gard⋅less
  /ˌɪrɪˈgɑrdlɪs/
–adverb Nonstandard. regardless.
Origin: 1910–15; ir- 2 (prob. after irrespective) + regardless

Usage note: Irregardless is considered nonstandard because of the two negative elements ir- and -less. It was probably formed on the analogy of such words as irrespective, irrelevant, and irreparable. Those who use it, including on occasion educated speakers, may do so from a desire to add emphasis (Ahh, could this really be so??). Irregardless first appeared in the early 20th century and was perhaps popularized by its use in a comic radio program of the 1930s.

Usage Note: Irregardless is a word that many mistakenly believe to be correct usage in formal style, when in fact it is used chiefly in nonstandard speech or casual writing. Coined in the United States in the early 20th century, it has met with a blizzard of condemnation for being an improper yoking of irrespective and regardless and for the logical absurdity of combining the negative ir- prefix and -less suffix in a single term. Although one might reasonably argue that it is no different from words with redundant affixes like debone and unravel, it has been considered a blunder for decades and will probably continue to be so.

oh, tragic.

john jerald is now in UK and says:

"..but damm babi, i saw a kelisa here, Got Airbag all.."joni: ya, the good quality stuff is not for us malaysians

Kesetiaan kepada Negara mah.

my random mention of the day=)

in the spirit of 1Malaysia...

i read this somewhere today:

"....I'd quite like to win, so I'm hoping all of you can help by logging onto xxxxxxxx and voting for me on there (there's a thing that says muslims shouldn't vote, but I think that's not very 1Malaysia, so just lie).


haha, quite amusing in an actually-not-that-funny way.

I hereby

swear off dyes until I have virgin hair again.
can't believe my hair used to be this shiny smooth pantene-y.

everybody needs..

...a colony of crazy friends who can entertain them seemingly endlessly. thankfully, i have some for myself, and they include this bangkok bunch who are capable of: (as far as my knowledge goes, and i know it doesn't go far enough)

- dressing up as Pippi Longstocking and Alladin's Genie..
- jell-o-ing their leader's staplers for him to discover the next day..
- sticking a 101 post-it notes alllllllll over their leader's office for him to discover the next day
- buying a freakishly-happy funky-hair-colored mannequin and sitting her in their leader's office for him to discover the next day (and naming her "Zelda splurtzsomething")
- dyeing their hair purple and blue and shaving a "hand of God" onto their little brother's head
- piercing their own and each other's ears
- taking over whole karaoke rooms to belt out such hits as "Barbie Girl" and "My Heart Will Go On" with much gusto. And all in formal attire too, no less.
- duct taping little boys to walls

and some random photos for proof....

yes. everybody needs such friends=)

quick reality check

" 90 people get Swine Flu and the whole world wants to wear a surgical mask, 20 million people have AIDS but still nobody wants use a condom. "

-someone on twitter-

journal update for self:

1. Our downstairs is looking livable finally. good job, mom and tam.

2. Tomorrow we paint our room an ocean colour! then hopefully next week, we'll paint our closet room a sunny colour, wheeeeeeee=)

3. When choosing room wall colours, I just realized we forgot to take into account the fact that our floor is parquet-coloured. meh. too late. as they say in recent career reality shows, "make it work, hon."

A really sad thing to hear

Heard after a church gathering:
"wow..today was the first time I felt like everybody at church accepted me just for me"

I'm sold.

Can't wait for my turn!