NAH!

*stops self from apologizing* Hellloooo, fellow people! my my the things that have happened since my last post. We've a lot of catching up to do so here we go...! Riana Green's 5pools [or so] was where the threesome decided we'd take a day off. It was "just nice"..as Goldilocks would say.Then came the night we went to Oasis. It was filled with water,ice,water,cards,more drinks,until some of our bladders malfunction-ed, hahahahahhahahah [for more information, please refer to Petrina Thong]

The Ultra Edition was a celeb party to honour three individuals in their form of art, be it music,fashion design, or pictorial art. Pet and I were there to help out with registration [yeah i know, not as glam, but hey.] It wasn't too bad, but nothing terribly exciting either.

This was Isaac Entry's last performance at Laundry. I was just in the mood to ber-Laundry last week, and paul wanted to practice on his cam,:P [and he turned 22 that night,too]..so...yeah.

And tHISSSSSS, is the reason why I've been so busy. Grace USJ youth organized a music workshop and mini concert on the 24th of Oct. And since I only work 'til 12.30pm while everyone else worked 'til much later, I got the jobs of : backdrop design/deco, 7min original performance [with DarrenAshley,Eugene,and Josh Jesudasan], dance choreography, and keyboard workshop teacher. I could go into details but..nahh. Ah yes, since you generally voted for the videoblogging of a song....here it is...
Disclaimer: i had a sore throat that i tried hard to get rid of, but under the circumstances of late night practices, early morning yelling-at-kindergarten-children days, lack of proper food, yadayadayada........yeah. i apologize for the pitchy "mariahcarey notes", as Sean put it.heh.

SEE!I'm on the right track.lol

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POLL or something to that extent.

I'm bored of talking about the happenings in my life here. hehe [as if]

But here. I'll give some suggestions for the next post, and if u like, u can pick one, and let me know.

Would you like me to..

A. take pictures of _____________ and post them up. [fill in the blank]

B. Video blog a song.

C. Do a questionnaire with questions you give me.hahahahahaha.

D. Write about the kids at the montessori I'm working at.

E. ____________________________ [fill in the blank]

I got my laptop. It works. I am happy.

Have you looked up the word "Semangat"?

So there we were getting a loonnnggg briefing about the dangers and safety precautions of paintball since a grand total of about TWO in our group had played it before. But we had an awesome bunch of characters with us. It was superb. And a tad violent. hehehehehehhehehe.

Jeremy was upset that I'd shot Sarah..

Sam was glad I'd made some useful shots...while he preened and primped himself.... Daniel Yong tried to be a pimp...but failed...so Pet had to show him how it's done..

I was upset that I didn't get any battlescars as proof that I played hard too!!! POTONG!!

THE BLOOD AND GORE WE CAUSED.

hehe. THE ONES WHO INFLICTED THEM...

And then of course we had to ber-poserposer aLOT.hehe.

AWwwww isn't this adorable?

That's Paul in green. He's a very sweet boy. And that's his brother Daniel Gan, who's just left the country. Byebye, Daniel...

I have a few more pics but it refuses to load. What's new. Anyway, bottom line is that we had a bLAST on the 9th of September when SARAH LIM SHU YI turned 19. The only sad part was that we lost a BIG bunch of important photos of the other parts of her birthday. sighh. ah well. We've got the memories....and a coupla sanitarytowels to remember those moments by. [hahahahah,sorry,internal joke.] LOVE YOU SARAH HAVE AN AWESOME NINETEENTH!!

The Indifference Card.

It's sorta like this. There comes a point where I just let things roll by. The sweet, the sour, the stale, the fresh, the raw, the bland. And I'm at that point. Maybe everything is too overwhelming for me to respond. Or maybe I'm just procrastinating the inevitable. *one big shrug* is the way I've been these two weeks. The indifference card is being played. Well, not really. Coz' it's not like I'm not affected by it all; I am but I'm choosing to take deep breaths and smile at life. I'm not emo, honest to goodness. It's just called "blankness", I suppose. Indifference is a little too strong, maybe. It's that slight la-di-da feeling, now and then. And other times, it's just a *blink blink* moment. Or those hours when I just need some air. mmhmm.
Sometimes I'm also tempted to get back into the Tasha madstressexcitedupsetgibberjabber mode. But then I stop myself in time, and wonder what good it would do. I've learnt that one shouldn't assume. I've learnt that one should not catch oneself in shady situations. I've learnt that it's hard for me to not try to explain what's on my heart and at the same time, it's hard to try to explain it.
Yup. So there we go. An uninteresting post, to say the least. I don't even have pictures to post up because I haven't gotten them from Pet/Sarah/Gene/whoever else. Erheh sorry.

p.s. did u notice my pathetic attempt at making this post at least "colorful" to look at?hahahahha. I figured it's the least I can do.Lol.*rolls eyes at self*

Just awesome. [edited 1]

I finally decide to get a Mac, instead of a pc, and they decide to have a worldwide shortage which bars me from getting one by this week, or ever.
*'tis-the-end-of-the-world pose*

Edit 1: it gets better. today,monday 21st,mom finds out that the credit card she has to apply for [they don't accept the one we already have!] will take about 3weeks.
frustration sial!!!!!!!

The Manglish Lesson

I have come to realize that the most useful version of English in the world is Manglish. Pretty bold statement, I suppose you without any Malaysian blood may say. But if you really took some time to learn a few phrases in Manglish, sooner or later you're gonna wonder how you ever got through life without some of these words. SO. I have decided to list out a few common phrases for you [yes you, the non-Malaysian] to learn and hopefully one day, use. Don't get me wrong. I'm not forcing you or anything; I'm merely enlightening you so that *I* may use them myself in the days to come [and you will understand what I mean when I do].

The most famous "Lah".
"Lah" is undoubtedly the first sound of Manglish that foreigners will hear and probably pick up soon enough. It is an additive you can add at the end of a word or a sentence to strengthen the expression.
Here are some examples of how we use the "lah":
Okay-lah! (The different tone of the speaker determines how willingly the person is agreeing to the subject discussed)
Can-lah! (This is often used to beg for something or favor)
Cannot-lah! (Well, to refuse somebody's begging...)
Yes-lah! (An unwilling way to say yes, also depending on the tone of speaker)
No-lah! (To strengthen your disagreement or decline to something)
Come on-lah! (Normally used to persuade people to change their opinion or attitude)
You can use the "lah" in almost any situation. Like: good-lah, nice-lah, no-sweat-lah, Don't-lah like that!, very clever-lah,etc.

A few other suffixes include:

mah : Used to affirm a sentence but not as strongly as "lah". Used at the end of sentences.
Eg. "She's like that mah.."

nah : Derived from the Malay expression of "Nah!". Used when giving something to another person. Eg. "Nah, take this!"

meh : Used when asking questions, especially when a persion is skeptical of something.
Eg. "Really meh?"

ah : Derived from the Chinese expression "a". Used at the end of sentences, but unlike "meh", the question is rhetorical. Also used when asking a genuine question. Besides that, some people use it when referring to a subject before making a (usually negative) comment.
Eg. "Why is he like that ah?"
"Is that true ah?"
"My brother ah, always disturb me!"

lor : Used when explaining something.
Eg. "Like that lor!"

Some random words to know:

"Kacau" [kah-chao'] means 'disturb' or stir things up in Malay. There are friendly 'kacau' and unfriendly 'kacau's. Sometimea, we just phone or visit our friend to kacau him/her from 'peaceful' loneliness. And there are some guys who always like to kacau girls! And normally we don't welcome people who will just come and ka-ka-cau-cau when we are busy doing or enjoying something.
Eg. "I don't like that guy-lah. He always kacau me in class.
" Eh, little boy, ka-ka-cau-cau me only! Go go go!"

"Blur" > confused, out-of-it. Roughly equivalent to "spacey" in American slang.
Eg. "Aiyah, that Jane always very blur lah. Don't ask her about these kinda things."

"Slumber" > relaxed, laid-back; possibly a conflation of the Malay "selamba", meaning nonchalant, and the English "slumber".
Eg. "Ya, Jason slumber only walked in and took the camera with him without telling us"

These are only a handful of the words/phrases that are so engraved in us Malaysians, making us the unique and weird people we are. If you'd like to learn more, do indulge in the wonderful world of the INTERNET, maybe try searching places like

THIS wikipedia page

or THIS one

or this china version of manglish which i don't really use much

Or if you are more 'semangat' [haha,look it up], you could even check this out.


[p.s. sorry this post is kinda messy.]

A stagnant song in dire need of a touch from ArielleTaiLiXian.

Down it all. Woe to him who let you fall.

Between spinning and speeding. Woe to him who left you weak.

All it took was just one strike.

Burning out in broad daylight.

No resolve to stand upright.

Squeeze it 'til the tracks left in your palm are purple-blue

Can't believe the hue could come from you.

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So. What am I to you?

Snapshots of my summer so far...

WANTED.

These two are guilty of conveniently FFK-ing me here. Reward Assured, please contact your nearest Joni if you see them.

ANATOLIY ZALEVSKYY

Say what you want, guys. I still think his act is SEXY. He's so strong and smooth and stimerlingamjitdootsingh!! Watch til 3:35, THEN only comment.

[to my non-grace-pj people, i'm sorry about that word, hhhahahhahah]

NAhhhh.

Nice? I made this for Arielle the butterfly queen a long time ago. Painstakingly cut each little hole with a penknife, trying hard not to slice the wrong sections and ruin the white card paper. I like the result. So far, being home has been a big mess of ups and downs. Put them together and I guess you'd get an equal ratio. Which I suppose is good. There ARE a lot of nice things going on. And it IS after all only my first week here. Wow. One week already huh. Gotta get moving and do all I wanna do here.

Nelvie!

ahhhahahah. buttaaaa.. i just wanted to put your name there for fun. Stress ar? ekekekekekkekeekekke.

I'm waiting on the pictures we've taken so far, before I can nicely update you on what I've been up to.Visuals are important. hehe. Oh look what I found! I'd never seen these pictures before until yesterday when i received a cd containing a big bunch from Arielle. thanks MUAKKKK doll!!

This was Christmas '05 at Grace P.J. Oh yeah, I just discovered that PetalingJaya is officially a city on its own now. YAY, that makes it a lot easier to describe to foreigners.

This was also in Dec '05 when the foursome had our reunion at The Curve with the firetruck ahahaha. Oh, and as you should know by now, that's Pet [or Petrina]. She should be here with me ber-holidaying now!! But she's having fun in Aussie and NZ later with Arielle, so nevermind lah. At least we had our Penang trip. Which was really fun, eh Pet? lol. *liCk*

Remember when we practiced like crazy in two days for the wedding anniversary dance? And the dances with the cool position shiftings and legs-up-in-the-air moves? Man, I wanna do that again! DANCE always makes me happyyyy ahahah.cheesy but hey, it's MY blog. Would have been fun if I had stayed for the Malaysian First Open Championship..but school here started at that time, so ...sigh..nevermind, one day we'll get together and do summin' just for fun. We'll get Charity to dance with us too coz she kicks ass. And of course ARIELLLEEE must come back too. We need her hips. hehehehe. Oh the good ol' days.

SAMUEL OH,pls watch this.

It's FREAKIN' hard to impress Joni with your electric guitar skills. FREAKING hard. But I found someone who just did. Which means, all you other elec.guitarists reading should go bang your heads against the nearest ceramic object til it breaks, then chew on the broken pieces as you watch THIS .

this lil piggy went to bangkok
this lil piggy stayed in school
this lil piggy had tom yam
this lil piggy had no naan.
this lil piggy is coming allll the wayyyy hommme.

Dodgy-dedodgy-dedodgy-dedingding.

I stall your "update!!" complains with these videos.



p.s. A special reward to the person who tells me where this post's title came from.

5minute pink confession in Manglish.

Actually I dunno how to explain it lor. I don't know him well and I don't have a crush on him. Really, I don't. But for some straanngge reason, his voice is in my head every now and then. He has like this strong accent that is so intriguing and makes me wanna just sit and listen. damn butaa rite?! i dunno lah, but confirm i will pandai pandai find more ways to do just that. Sit and listen. ahahahahha. Pet, before u give me your *pet look*, no, it's not THaT one.lol.

Random but useful informasi to the world : i am NOT a stalker and i am not lesbian. though that chick the other day.................
hahahhahha i kid i kid!!

and another thing. i heart Sarah Lim Shu Yi. And I've always tried to protect her [even when we were this small,apparently haha] AND even if sometimes to her exasperation. But yeah.

So what's my point? You, mister. Yes, YOU,you know who you are, stop grinning to yourself. Remember, I'm watching you like a hawk, so don't make any 'funny' moves. May the first one home win. hahahaha..

ok.back to work,joni.

Yes please, I'll have another slice of cheesecake.

ViewThis.

Simpler Days.

Sometimes the loading is temporarily unavailable and sometimes the pictures turn into colored boxes. Hopefully by the time you see this, it'll be fine.If not...better luck next time?

Featuring...Pt.II

Meet Miss Veronica. I've described her before,really [see July23rd2005 post].wow.almost a year ago.scary.
Anyway, I thought I'd feature yet another budding photographer. She picked up photography QUITE recently and well, I'm sure she'll be glad to let into her lilpictureworld. Italy is one big beautiful scene, I'm sure you'll notice. Her black&whites are really nice [click the pic of the baby when u get there]. I'm being random here. I heart Nica. We were "the best". *hands up in air motion* eh,girl? :) [sorry,inside joke] MUAHKKk.

On a different note, today my day was made better when I stumbled upon the admission that I'm an influence to you. I didn't know that. I feel honored. Don't change that list for a while, ok? haha. Thanks.

P.S. And for the record, you're an inspiration. Uh huh. Isn't that scary.

*blink*

I don't like it when you press "Stop" in the middle of a song.
I'd rather you turn the volume down slowly THEN stop.
I guess I need a nice conclusion. Or the illusion of one.

My inspiration for this post came from a lyric I just read.

Membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Membuatku merasakan yang t'lah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri

I liked that last line. A rough translation :

Making me fall and fall again
Making me feel what's past
All the best, and all that's missed
All that's stopped without me ending it.

Like that abrupt feeling I get when you press Stop.
When you don't end what you started in the first place.
The it's-gone-but-something's-still-hanging-somewhere feeling
like a thin silver thread of web. hardly visible, but there.

I really don't have a point in this post.
I'm homesick.
And it's not going away.

Word Vomit. i apologize.do not read.

I'd give a lot if they would teach me how to dance freely

and just be me.

I'd breathe easier if they told me that I'm doing it right

and that it's okay to be me.

I mess up. I trip. I stray. I break. under the pressure of it all.

And sometimes when it's too sharp, I just get numb from the fall

Could a kind soul reach into mine,

and put the warmth back inside?

Could they hold this heart ever so gently and nurse it back to life?

Could they search a little more and remove the splinters

cut away the cancer

suck out all the waste

Could they let me be me?

If she'd only see what I've truly become

If he'd only believe in what I could be

If they saw my thoughts spread out, heard it loud,

Would they let me be me?

I know, I know. You don't have to tell me how crap this post is.

I'll probably regret ever typing this by tomorrow.

[another day:yeah, i regretted it.]

Your ASSETS might be in here.

I thought, since my head refuses to sort out my gazillion thoughts well enough to blog out, I shall entertain instead. Here. Whose body parts are these? *chuckle*

We'll start with eyes...

This hideous nose belongs to..........

The adorable lips of... [pet,stop chuckling k.]

The OBVIOUS body of....[no, i DO NOT like this type of body,thank you.it's disgusting.]

and i'm gonna get smacked for this, but....ah well. These legs belong to.........

And of course,the females - what u've been looking out for hahahah,don't lie.

The sultry peeps of..

I LOVE HER SMILE.GORGEOUSSSS...

If you know who belongs to these boobies,u and i need to have a lil talk.....

BUT, if you don't know whose body THIS is, you're...painfully alien.[?]

and just a few cute toes belonging to _____ to top it off...

Enjoy guessing.

ENOUGH ALREADY.

1. My uncle once:paid me to cut out gary larson's The Far Side comics and stick it in a book for him.
2. Never in my life have I: watched Titanic. *and the world goes GASP*
3. When I'm nervous:i have the lost look.
4. The last time I cried was:the whole of last week, seemingly.
5. My thoughts:are sometimes overlooked, then reconsidered.
6. When I was 5:i protected my brother like the quills on a porcupine.
7. Last Christmas: i was happily surrounded by the entire foursome.A sweet/mad/crazy/awesome/tragic/funky/luUrRvely reunion.
8. When I turn my head left, I see:a bowl of fake fruit.
9. When I turn my head right, I see:guitar and a bra.
10. When I look down I see:After Eight wrapper. *oops* *crushcrushhide*
11. The craziest recent event was:SONGKRAN at khao sannnn!!
12. I have a hard time understanding:the whys of relationships.
13. One time at a family gathering:i changed the lyrics of Grow Old With You a lil and sang it to my granpa.
14. You know I "like" you if: i dont mind hanging out with you.
15. If you visit my hometown:you'd have to go to the riverside and watch it at night!! it's LOVELY.
16. Where do you plan to visit anytime soon:bali. nannue,wanna come? hahhahah
17. Boys are:great.Men are better.
[although if i dont say so,i'd be in big trouble since im amongst a LOT of them]
18. Today i: thought of a particular night frequently.
19. The world could do without: model standards.
20. Most recent thing you've bought yourself :alot lah...most recenttttt i think would beee....liners. ahahhahahahhahahahhahaha
21. Most recent thing someone else bought you: B.breezer.
22. I need:a laptop with loads of power and a bf.
23. And by the way:i dont NEED a bf. i want one. there's a difference.
24. The person I last talked to told me to:have fun with the song.
25. There's this girl who I: want so badly to corrupt.
26. There is this guy who I:only recently saw a different side and decided it was rather interesting.

and so songkran begins.

A reward in exchange of a better title for this song.

Shiraz

[25th March 2006]

Soft and gentle. Constant, devoted joy.
Tenderly…tenderly we sway
She watches from the shelter of her existence.
She yearns for a chance, she thirsts for what could be what should be
Desires…she desires..

And she asked me how, how does it happen, please?
And she asked me how, how does it feel, this bliss?
And she asked me why, I try and I try I can’t simulate this too,
It’s so hard to do, can’t seem to get through

Sense surreal. The sick sweetness keels me almost to my knees
And I like it.
In her chambers, the sweet sickness keels her almost to her knees
And she hates it.
You’re so terrified of change, yet it’s what you crave
Unlock your confine, come taste this wine
You’re so terrified of change, yet it’s what you crave
Unlock your confine, come taste this wine.

Yesteryears impair your view
Numbness soon became your tune
Bygones drape your hollowed eyes
As you bleed tears, say goodbye

I stole this. But we shall call it "quoting".

I read Bailey's post and can't help but quote. It's so unfortunate. And more and more girls are beginning to realize how true this is.

"The moment you hear that a GUY is an amazing dancer... immediately you will ask or KNOW that he is GAY...WHY is it that STRAIGHT men are so damn boring? They won't dance... won't get involved in anything interesting at all... they just stone around playing Dota & shit... Then all the girls end up falling for gay men... and the straight men get jealous and start insulting the gay men... COME ON! The ratio of women : men is already 2 : 1... and our options are lessening and lessening by the minute."

Can I hear an Amen?